Anyway recently I've been asking God to reveal to me why I still feel pain after so long. Have you ever experienced something that turned your world upside down, and when you finally think you've come to terms with the situation, you realise that it still hurts? Or is it just me? You ask yourself over and over again "Where is this pain coming from?". You search every ounce of your heart, your emotion, your thoughts. You think if you can just pin point where the wound is you can put a band aid on it and all will be well. It almost feels like an itch on your back that you can't scratch. Rejection does that. It cuts so deep. It has such an effect that it can cut a 40 year old woman so deep that it penetrates straight into her childhood. If there is anything that the devil likes to use against us , it is certainly rejection.
Time may have moved on, seasons may have changed, your light maybe shining so much brighter than before and you can finally say "Yes life is moving forward. I can see the end of this situation." This is all true and the bible even says in Job 17:9 “The righteous keep moving forward, and those with clean hands become stronger and stronger.” I can certainly say that with time I have become stronger and I will keep on getting stronger. However, why do we still feel a slight throbbing pain after time has moved on.
I remember talking to my good friend Jasmine, for whom I was a bridesmaid for in her wedding not so long ago. I remember asking her about her life before she got married. Jasmine, shared her story about this guy she was head over heels in love with and believed with every bone in her body that he was "the one" but unfortunatly (or fortunatly for her now-husband) he turned around and told her he didn't feel the same way. She described to me how the break up rocked her world. Jasmine is so in love with her husband now and I will never forget these words she spoke to me: "I love my husband, I will never trade him for anything. However, the rejection from the previous guy still hurts a litte." I was completely gobsmacked when I heard this. Jasmine who had everything still felt the pain of previous hurts. At this moment it was clear to me that rejection cuts the deepest.
Good Friday, is fast approaching and I am really going to take time to think about Jesus, the one went through the most painful rejection of all time. One that you and I could never fathom. He was rejected by men and His own Father for our sake. God literally turned his back on him (Matthew 27:46). Yet Jesus cried out to God in that same verse. I think you and I should continue to do the same thing. When the rejection becomes unbearable, just know that this path has already been walked and cry out to Him.
